ok ive thot abt it and i think y i was sad is cos i just feel really pointless doing nothing. so i went and like sent alot of emails to many many organisations thru the national volunteer and philantrophy association to sign up for stuff. so i feel much better now haha.

anyway iw as just thinking. how come some pple have loads of serious friendships like they really talk abt thier feelings on things and like. u noe. have serious and mature friendships haha. i need tt man. the most serious i ever seem to go is gossip which is not good! yah i think the only pple tt i have serious friendships with are chuili and marcus. and marcus not anymore i think. haha. so cl u better be honoured! maybe its when i talk to more mature pple den i will act more mature haha. i dunno i see how some pple like thier friends really make an impact on thier lives like make them into better people and i wonder have i ever done tt? and i dun think so... as in. yah. making them laugh doesnt count rite.sighz. i dunno lah. but i think ill be qt scared to have tt kind of friendships with pple haha. like too scary liao :p

oops. im wierd. anyway, the liozzie mcguire show is SUPER STUPID. i felt my brain cells dying as i watched the show. really lah. not funny at all and SO predictable gosh. hillary duff is qt ugly summore haha.

i wanna be a useful person not slacking arnd at home all day or going out... i WILL! haha. :)